Old and New.

It is the eve of a new year. Out with the old, in with the new!

...But...


Let's face it, nothing really changes on New Year. Lots of people get drunk, or make lists of things they are going to change or things they are going to accomplish, but none of it changes. The only thing new is the number year we write when we date things... and even that doesn't change for a few weeks into the new year.

Nothing changes because people like what they like and will not change. Sure, some things change during a year. Stuff happens. But in the grand scheme of things... nothing changes.

New Years is boring.

Like most "holidays"

The only thing I hope for this next year, is that by the end of it I am totally independant, and no longer living with a jerk. I'm looking forward to being on my own, and if I could simply get a job that would support that, all would be doable. (After I get a car and phone...)
The only thing I will REALLY miss when that happens, is games at night with Granny.

me and mom:

Life. Work.

Things have been about the same for the last month or so. Working at the Job Training Center has been enjoyable. The last couple of days I have been learning more about the paperwork, and today I more-or-less ran the corner in which I am stationed since the other boss people weren't there. There was only one minor hiccup which turned out to be nothing.
Weekends are busy as well. With house cleaning, laundry, and running here and there (and wasting time with Netflix.)
My Bible time has suffered by my choice, and I have missed that. I am thankful for a CD I was given with an hour of bible verses set by topic. I fall asleep to that every night.
I'm still not sure what kind of permanent job I would like to go for, but I have been working on my interviewing answers by the 50 most common question sheet I was given.

Before I started training at NAR, I was so sure I would be different. I would stand out in a crowd. I would do above and beyond, and better. I had a mission that soon all but disappeared. Some days it is all I can do to not break into pieces with the stress and pain. Some days my best is a much lower standard. Most days I still try to hold onto that resolve I was once so sure I would live out every minute of every day.

On that topic that you didn't know I was thinking... How weird is it that minute(time) and minute(small) are spelled the same?? I wont get much into how weird English, just that note.

That's it.

full week.

This last week was my first full week of work. The job training isn't "hard" work, but it is more than I have ever done before of the same over and over. Mostly put stickers on packages. This weekend I have spent much time in bed, and even more in my PJs. And I'm still tired.

Tonight, we had our Christmas Dinner at church. I enjoyed sitting at the table I sat at, with the people that were there. Good food. Christmas Carols. Christmas Story.