For Jesus.

One of my biggest battles has been doing things for people I don't like. I don't want to do things for people who don't like me, and who are against God. I want to scream at them that they are going to Hell and that nothing I can do for them will change that. I want to sit up on a pedestal, and be too good to do anything for them. This is a battle of pride. Many excuses, or reasons, or other names to call it, can not change what it is at the heart.

Today, I was asked to move an object from one place to another place. The object was not that heavy, nor was it to be moved so very far. But with all of me I did not want to do it, because of who asked me to. I knew in my heart that I should, and so I gave no answer, and battled within myself. Then I mentioned it to Granny when the subject arose that the object needs to be moved. I said "I still haven't decided if I'm going to do it or not." And with that, she goes over and tests the objects weight (as she did not before know), comments about how light it is, and moves it.

This stabbed me in the heart. It was a simple task, why was it so hard for me to accept it? Because I didn't want to do it FOR the asker. I knew that, but why did that really matter? Granny then mentions several things still needing to be done, and I volunteer. Why? Because I'd love to do things FOR her.
This all did not come to my mind as it happened, but as I did the tasks, God gave me a song that cut me right through the heart.

"I wonder have I done my best for Jesus,
Who died upon the cruel tree?
To think of His great sacrifice at Calvary!
I know my Lord expects the best from me.

Refrain:
"How many are the lost that I have lifted?
How many are the chained I’ve helped to free?
I wonder, have I done my best for Jesus,
When He has done so much for me?

"The hours that I have wasted are so many
The hours I’ve spent for Christ so few;
Because of all my lack of love for Jesus,
I wonder if His heart is breaking too.

"I wonder have I cared enough for others,
Or have I let them die alone?
I might have helped a wand’rer to the Saviour,
The seed of precious Life I might have sown.

"No longer will I stay within the valley
I’ll climb to mountain heights above;
The world is dying now for want of someone
To tell them of the Saviour’s matchless love."


John 15:15-20
Henceforth I call you not servants; for the servant knoweth not what his lord doeth: but I have called you friends; for all things that I have heard of my Father I have made known unto you.
Ye have not chosen me, but I have chosen you, and ordained you, that ye should go and bring forth fruit, and that your fruit should remain: that whatsoever ye shall ask of the Father in my name, he may give it you.
These things I command you, that ye love one another. If the world hate you, ye know that it hated me before it hated you.
If ye were of the world, the world would love his own: but because ye are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hateth you.
Remember the word that I said unto you, The servant is not greater than his lord. If they have persecuted me, they will also persecute you; if they have kept my saying, they will keep yours also.

Prov25 21-22 If thine enemy be hungry, give him bread to eat; and if he be thirsty, give him water to drink: For thou shalt heap coals of fire upon his head, and the Lord shall reward thee.

God loves to work THROUGH His children. I am to be a vessel for Him to fill with His Spirit that others may receive the gift of Living Water. I need to keep my focus on Him, so that everything I do is for Him, no matter who else may benefit.