effects...

My last post was about how it is my choice to control my future. While that all stands, today  I realized how much I am still controlled by my past.
Today I looked up PTSD. Not just looking up the basic what it is, but all the effects. It almost shocked me how much it affects every day of my life. It is hard. I want to be better, and while I have made much progress in the last 8 months, I still have so far to go to even be very functional. Something as simple as having a few people over for supper and games sends my anxiety over my limit of being able to deal with it.
We had two evenings in a row that we had people over, and I spend most all the next day each time as not myself.
I know of two major keys to overcoming this are Trusting God, and Persistence. I thank God for my grandmother who wont let me give up just because it gets hard. He has shown His love for me through her and others. He is able... I know He is able.