"I'm not going to kill myself over it." meaning "I'm not going to fuss over every little detail, a general-ness is good enough-It's not that important."
This is a phrase Granny says often. It's really a good phrase to live by. Most things in life just aren't that important.
This phrase means more to me than it may to some of you reading this as I was once seriously wanting to take and discard my own life.
In my attempts to grow up a bit, I decided to stop complaining about things I can't change (Like my health/physical pain). So, now I say "I'm okay" or "I'll live" when I'm asked if I'm hurting.
Last night Granny asked about a pain, and I replied with "I'll live." She said something to the effect of "That's good" Then I added "Not like I really have a choice." Our conversation about that ended there, but I want to say, maybe for the benefit of someone, why I say I don't have a choice.
Yes, God gives us freewill... But only as it is within the confines of His great will. If you still have a task or purpose you have to fill for His great will, you wont die no matter how hard you try.
I know I still have something I'm supposed to do because I couldn't die.
I didn't go all out trying, but I didn't eat or drink or a week at a time. It's only a miracle of God that I am alive today.
One thing (of the many things) I have learned from my grandmother, is that life isn't worth dying over.
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